This post had an unusual origin but I believe it will be useful, perhaps to a particular person I shall never meet.
Saint Peter is of particular importance in the long history of the
Church. We know a reasonable amount about him. He came from Capharnaum
where he lived with his wife and mother-in-law. He was a fisherman
together with his brother Andrew, and it seems they had more than one
boat , so they may have been significant among the local fishermen.
Fishermen are proverbially rough and tumble folk , hardy and hard
living. So it might seem surprising that Jesus chose Simon Bar-Jonah -
for that was then his name, to be an Apostle.Jesus knew all about Simon of course, but Simon did not yet know that.
Such was the power of God's grace at work, that when Jesus bade Simon
and Andrew to "Come follow Me, and I will make you Fishers of men", they
dropped their nets and followed Him. In those earliest days their
following of the Master was evidently not full time. For a day or so
later , we find the two have been fishing when Jesus comes to them and
bids them to push out into the deep , and put down their nets for a
catch. Here, the Fisherman in Peter comes out fully and he tells Jesus
they have been out all night and caught nothing, but, God's grace gets
the better of the Fisherman, and because it is Jesus who makes the
request, Simon will do it.
And what a catch it is! The nets are full to breaking!
Simon is no fool- he knows that what he is seeing is supernatural and
that Jesus is the Person responsible for it. He still does
not understand that Jesus knows everything. He kneels before Our Lord
and begs Him in great humility :"Depart from me, for I am a sinful man O
Lord".
Centuries later , the poet Francis Thompson ( 1859-1907), because of
the misguided medical practice of his day, became addicted to the
tincture of Opium, called Laudanum , then very widely used for the
relief of pain. Thompson was a devout man , and haunted by his
addiction, which after repeated relapses killed him. He was always
conscious of God's love and of God's pursuit of him no matter how
seriously he fell. He wrote the marvellous, harrowing poem "The Hound of
Heaven" to describe the unremitting character of God's love for him,
even when - in the grip of his addiction - he was rejecting it. He
wrote of the Hound of Heaven pursuing him "down the labyrinthine ways".
He was aware that this loving pursuit was part of a process , and cried
out in anguish:
"Must Thou char the wood, ere'st Thou can limn with it?"
Saint Peter was at the beginning of the discovery of the constant
faithfulness of God's Love, at the beginning of being "charred"that the
Lord might "limn"with him.
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SAINT PETER
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We know even more about Saint Peter, for his personality radiates
strongly from the Gospels and his Epistles. Saint Peter is seen to be a
man of burning enthusiasms which cause him to often commit himself
beyond the strength of his will or common prudence.He is a spontaneous,
big-hearted man .He means well but often stumbles. Jesus in due course
let Peter know that He had him summed up all along. For He said to him
"Simon, Simon, behold Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift
you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not, and
thou being once converted confirm thy brethren."
This was a remarkable Revelation of the Life of the Trinity in effect,
but Simon's personality has no time for reflection on Divine wonders :
his gratitude and enthusiasm wells up and he positively gushes : "Lord, I
am ready to go with Thee, both into prison, and to death." We will
return to this exchange in due course - but for the moment it clearly
reveals the generous, well-intentioned character of Saint Peter.
Earlier on , Our Lord had given Simon Bar - Jonah a new name - the
beginning of the ancient tradition of adopting "names in religion" -
e.g. Brother Albanus, Sister Austin, Father Antonio and Pope Pius XI. In
many areas this custom begun by Our Lord has been abandoned by those
who say"I gotta be ME". Be that as it may, Our Lord gave Simon the name
"Cephas"( in Greek) that is "Petrus"(in Latin) and "Peter"(in English).
The word means "Rock" and Our Lord went on to say "And upon this Rock , I
will build My Church, and the gates of Hell will not prevail against
it."
There are two times in the Gospels when it seems to me anyway, we can,
between the lines see a loving affectionate smile likely on Our Lord's
face. One is when the rather short, rich publican Zaccheus clambers up
into a sycamore tree in his enthusiasm to see the Lord. He must have
looked ridiculous, short, rich , no doubt overweight hanging up there in
a tree like some street urchin. And Jesus bids him by name to come down
quickly "for this day I must abide in thy house". Each time I read it I
cannot avoid the thought that Our Lord was gently, kindly looking upon
this man who was in haste and desperation to know Him. Similarly, Our
Lord chose the name "Rock"for Simon to reflect the historic role this
improbable man was to have in the history of the world. Yet, knowing
Simon as the Sacred Scripture presents him to us, warts and all, is
there anyone who could be in essence less like a "Rock"? Solid, reliable
- that is not the Simon we come to know. But Jesus knows EVERYTHING
about Simon Peter and knows all his weakness, and He also knows what he
can become with the Holy Spirit's help. Jesus loves Simon Peter, he
loves that bigheartedness, that generosity of spirit, and even that
weakness that brings all the positives so often undone.It is hard to
resist the thought that there was a certain gentle, loving irony in Our
Lord's choice of "Rock"for His very wobbly Apostle.
Time and again we see Saint Peter revealed in various situations,
acting in the same way. On the Lake the Apostles see the a figure
walking on the water as they fear their boat will sink in the storm. "Be
of good heart : it is I, fear not"Jesus says. Peter as usual in moments
of stress or trouble is the one to speak up :"Lord, if it be Thou, bid
me come to Thee upon the waters."
Now, a more natural response would have been " Lord , come here and save
us ". But Peter was no doubt inspired to say what he did in order that a
salutary lesson could be taught.Jesus simply answered "Come"" and that
was enough for Peter, over the side he went and began to walk on the
water toward Jesus! His Faith drove him. But, what was this? The wind
was howling in his face and the sea was lashing him and :"seeing the
wind strong, he was afraid: and when he began to sink he cried out
saying : "Lord save me".And immediately Jesus stretching forth His hand
took hold of him , and said to him : "O thou of little faith, why didst
thou doubt?"The lesson is plain for the Church and for all of us, our
Faith must be strong and constant in good times and in the face of
horrendous opposition, and Our Loving Lord will always see us through!
Still later, very late in the day , as Our Lord , in the Upper Room,
goes to wash the feet of Peter, we see typical Peter - he has looked
askance as Jesus washed the feet of the others - this is not fitting he
thinks, and he cannot stop himself saying "Lord, doest Thou wash my
feet?" Unworthy me - and you the Christ - the Son of the Living God!
But Jesus answers simply : "What I do thou knowest not now; but thou
shalt know hereafter."Peter is determined and emphatic : "Thou shalt
never wash my feet."
Jesus is calm , but resolute : "If I wash thee not, thou shalt have no
part with Me." The response is typically Peter - the big heart, the
great enthusiasm : "Lord, not only my feet, but also my hands and my
head". Jesus answers him gently, correctingly, as one might speak to an
excitable child: "He that is washed, needeth not but to wash his feet,
but is clean wholly. And you are clean, but not all of you."( The
discourse goes on to deal with Judas Iscariot.)
Later in the evening, in the Garden of Gethsemane, when the Temple
police/soldiers come to arrest the Lord, and they move to lay hands upon
him, Peter - ever excitable- forgets Jesus' foretelling that He must
suffer, and whipping out a sword lashes out and cuts off the ear of one
of the Temple police. Instantly Jesus commands him to put up his sword
and heals the man's ear. Peter is slow to learn , but very quick to act
and talk. Earlier he had, as we know assured Our Lord that he would
gladly go to prison or to death with Jesus. And the Lord had promised
him that before the cock crowed Peter would deny Him three times - not
once, but - systematically - three times.
So it happens, in the outer courts of the High Priest's home, whilst the
Lord of the World is being questioned and insulted by the proud High
Priests who had bought their offices from the Roman conquerors, and
assaulted by their crude troops, Peter is hovering safely outside hoping
to hear what happens.
Not so safely, as it transpires. For three time
in succession he is challenged as a follower of Jesus by common servants
of the household.The cock indeed crows and as the Lord is being led out
. He is to be imprisoned for a few hours until they can hurry Him as
early as possible on Friday before the Roman Procurator Pontius Pilate.
The Gospel is dramatically sparse in recording the scene. Here is Peter,
still in the panicky flush of his third denial of Christ - Jesus is led
out past him, and Peter sees his sorry, bloodied condition and the
rough handling He is receiving. He is stricken and sick with guilt. And
Jesus... and Jesus.. the Gospel tells us simply two words : "Conversus
Dominus". The Lord turned and looked at Peter. No words of reproof, no
accusation, no correction.
The Anointed One - the Christ - simply,
sadly looked at Peter. And Peter, we are told, burst into bitter and
uncontrolled tears. Tears which were to recur and recur as the years
passed and he absorbed the horror of what he had done. Tradition has it
that his tears created great furrows down his face.
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SAINT PETER - El Greco |
Time passed, the Resurrection, the Descent of the Holy Spirit at
Pentecost and Peter is transformed - there he is , the Leader preaching
to and converting thousands, speaking out boldly in front of the Temple
authorities and defying their strictures not to preach about Christ.He
is transformed - largely - but still human. When there are no Jews
around Peter rightly ignores the now displaced old Law dietary
restrictions. But when some Jews come to town, rather than risk a
confrontation with them, Peter conforms to those dietary restrictions.
Saint Paul , not without his own human weaknesses , as he tells us
elsewhere,and we see for ourselves, will have none of this and confronts
Peter on the point and wins the day. A little glimpse of the old weak
willed Peter had been seen and put down.
Peter is now no longer a young man. This work of evangelisation had
obviously not come easily to someone who had known nothing but catching
fish. But he had walked with Jesus Christ and learned from Him and he
had received the Holy Spirit, and years on the Mission had made the most
of him, from Capharnaum to Jerusalem, to Antioch and finally to Rome
the home of the Beast the monstrous pagan Empire. Now as an old man, he
works on in the heart of the Evil Empire when persecution breaks out. It
seems that the whole future of the Church (Christ's promise to be with
her always, forgotten perhaps) is at risk. It is decided that Saint
Peter and numbers of the disciples should save themselves by escaping
the City. Out they tramp along the Appian Way, until Saint Peter meets.....
he meets Jesus Himself carrying His Cross in the opposite direction!
Peter cries out to Him:
"Quo Vadis , Domine?" "Where are you going Lord?"
The answer is concise "Iterum Romam Crucifigi!' "I am going to Rome to
be crucified again!" Saint Peter, even in his old age is still being
pursued and humiliated by his failings. He turns about and returns to
Rome against all human wisdom. Here traditionally. he was martyred on
the very same day as Saint Paul.
Paul a Roman Citizen - that proudest
boast of the ancient world - had the "privilege"of being beheaded. But
this Jewish Fisherman, Peter, is to be crucified as befits aliens. But now
he has courage in word and in deed : he asks that he be crucified
upside down, saying he is not worthy to be crucified as was Jesus
Christ. And so it happened on the Circus of Nero across the road from
the Vatican Hill and he was taken across that road for burial in the
cemetery there which can now be seen in the Scavi or Excavations under
Saint Peter's Basilica's High Altar..
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Crucifixion of SAINT PETER - Carravagio |
The Hound of Heaven , the Love of God , had pursued Peter across the
Roman world and won the conclusive victory at what is now the Heart of
Christ's Church. The lesson is immense for all of us, God's Love for us
is relentless and ardent. No matter what our weaknesses, no matter how
often we stumble, God loves us and pursues us for our salvation .
The
Miracle of Love - how could we fail to respond?
TONY DIXON